I need to shut up

Yep. I do

So, let's not speak words here anymore. Let's just speak bullshit about my day and stuff.

So, wooo I had school today. It wasn't that bad, but I was half dead the whole day because I didn't fall asleep until after 1:30 last night (not for lack of trying, I was legitimately there in my bed trying to sleep and just couldn't). But, thankfully, I got to start the day with a free. It's my lonely free, but that is the time I get to just interent and no one is saying "OH MY GOD WHAT WAS THAT LOLZ THAT WAS SO FUNNY LETS KEEP LOOKING AT IT EVEN THOUGH YOU WANT TO MOVE ON" (which happens a lot in my other frees, as it is generally friends video gaming next to me, then they look over and see something funny, and say basically those words). Then I had math. Math wasn't horrible today. We just learned a bit more about rational functions. Mr. Hallas also wasn't being too much of an asshole today, so that was nice. Then I had English, in which we did legitimately nothing at all. Garret presented his poem, we reviewed some punctuation, and had a stupid thing, then began some presentations. Then was history, which was just notes as usual. Then a free (yay!) in which I just talked to Lily whilst she was going insane (not even exaggerating). Then I had Spanish, which was suckish as usual. Then I had photo! We didn't really do anything today. We saw some negatives and such and Mr. Jones attempted to demonstrate a camera obscura, but it wasn't sunny enough. So, we ended class 15 minutes early and left. I think photo is going to be pretty fun once we get into actually doing stuff. The class is really big though, like 18 people, so that's going to suck. But, there is a really attractive freshman in the class, so that's nice.

So that was my day. Pretty boring, but akjdhaksjdhad.

P.S. Sorry for all the mentions of guys recently on the blog. It's just really nice (in my opinion) that I'm able to finally say these things now, after more than 3 years of keeping it a secret. I'll calm down at some point, I promise.

I LOL

Okay, so I just got a thing from Dr. Sanders about my Macbeth essay. She said it's my best work of the year and I must have worked incredibly hard on it.

Guess what?

I wrote it in like 2 hours while taking a like 15 minute break after each paragraph (ADD problems)

Apparently I am a professional bullshitter.

Thank you Chanukkah

So I just remembered I still have $150 left from Chanukkah. Guess what I'm going to do with it? I'M GOING TO BUY 10 CLASSIC WHO STORIES. YES IT IS GOING TO BE EPIC. I AM GOING TO LOVE IT. I AM EVEN GETTING SOME JELLY BABIES. I AM GOING TO BE BRITISH. WOOOO.

THANK YOU GRANDPARENTS.

I was told to post

I don't really know what I'm going to say, but hello!

I'm typing obnoxiously loud right now. Not really sure why.

I hate these posts in which I just say a sentence and then have a space and then say another one.

But here is one.

Okay now I'm just doing it to annoy you all.

Hehe I win.

Anyway, my day has been pretty boring. I haven't really done much. I slept, and then I woke up. Then I ate breakfast (well it was more like lunch, but still). Then I computed for a while. Then I read (yes, Aki, I can read). Then I helped my father get all of the recycling stuffs to the place that they needed to get to. Then we got dinner and ate it. Then, I went on a reblogging spree on tumblr. I reblogged a shit ton of Lizzie Bennet Diaries things. Including this. That is apparently also a meme called Hipster!Darcy. But the caption entertained me (as that was like my favorite line from whichever episode that was from) (also Darcy is attractive). But anyway, now I'm here and writing about my day. I hope you enjoyed it.

Something somewhat entertaining

This is going to be a quick post. Just saying.



Girls are always saying "ALL OF THE ATTRACTIVE GUYS ARE GAY!"

But I noticed myself thinking this earlier "ALL OF THE ATTRACTIVE GUYS ARE STRAIGHT!"


I guess the grass is always greener on the other side.

This picture only proves my point. That is a beautiful guy, and he is straight. (Credit to the bestie for the picture, by the way)


I don't really know why I made this post. It was far more entertaining in my head, but now that I look at it in writing it looks stupid. But, since I have nothing else to post, enjoy this.





P.S. In the interest of fairness, I did just get sent a long list of pictures of attractive gay guys (apparently this is what Erika likes to do, I don't know). But, still most of the attractive guys are straight. Merrr

Woo sickness

So I'm at home sick

#funtimes

It's actually pretty good. I had some stuff I needed to catch up on for school, so my migraine this morning gave me the perfect opportunity to stay home and get some work done. Also get away from all of the drama that has recently attacked me. Well I have to go back tomorrow...sadly. At least I drop Spanish! Wooo!!

Merrr things

Another vague thing sorry.


I have too many things going on. School, personal things, and super personal things. I wish school would just leave. The personal things are stupid. And the super personal things kind of suck. There is also multiple super personal things, so yeah.

Just too much stuff. That's all. It's also all happening at once, so that sucks.

Mah Fravrit Querts

First off, sorry it's red. It had to be or you wouldn't be able to read the quotes. The white highlight is because I copied from Facebook, and I couldn't figure out how to fix it. Sorry. If it weren't red, you could barely read it. 


So, I haven't posted in a few days. I still have no idea what to post about, so I'll just post my favorite quotes from my facebook page. Sorry there are so many of them. I like a lot of words. Enjoy the entertainment and awesomeness:


From this distant vantage point, the Earth might not seem of particular interest. But for us, it's different. Consider again that dot. That's here, that's home, that's us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every "superstar," every "supreme leader," every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived there – on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam.
- Carl Sagan

Nerds like us are allowed to be unironically enthusiastic about stuff. We don't have to be like, 'Oh yeah that purse is okay' or like, 'Yeah I like that band's early stuff.' Nerds are allowed to love stuff, like jump-up-and-down-in-the-chair-can't-control-yourself-love it. When people call people nerds, mostly what they are saying is, 'You like stuff', which is just not a good insult at all, like 'You are too enthusiastic about the miracle of human consciousness'.
- John Green

Jon: What religion are the Kwanza people?
Aki: Africa?

Sarah: I took Chinese for a while.
Me: Cool! Say something!
Sarah: 您的姓氏是什麼?
Me: What does that mean?
Sarah: What's your surname?
Me: You should know my last name by now
Me: 
Me:
Sarah:
Me: OOOOOHHHH

In the beginning, the universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry, and has been widely regarded as a "bad move."
- Douglas Adams

Space is big, really big! You just won't believe how vastly, hugely, mind- bogglingly big it is. I mean, you may think it's a long way down the road to the chemist's, but that's just peanuts to space.
- Douglas Adams

This is my timey-wimey detector...It goes ding when there's stuff.
- The Doctor

Apollo: What's your name, again?
Brenda: Amnesia!
Apollo: Amnesia, that's a pretty name.

People assume that time is a straight progression from cause to effect, but actually, from a nonlinear, nonsubjective viewpoint it's actually more like a big ball of wibbly wobbly, timey wimey...stuff.
- The Doctor

A needle that looks like hay. A haylike needle of death. A haylike needle of death in a haystack ... of statues. No, yours was fine.
- The Doctor

I can't remember anything after I first came to Eureka, like becoming an astronaut, or being kidnapped, or dying. Especially the dying part...that was awkward.
- Holly Marten

Fargo, get up! We gotta put your thing in a hole before it blows!
- Sheriff Carter

What do you hear?
Nothing but the rain...
- Adama and Starbuck

Amy: If we had gotten married, our kids would have had very, very red hair
Doctor: The ultimate ginger!

I'm the doctor. Well, they call me the doctor. Don't know why...I call me the doctor too. Still don't know why...
- The Doctor

I'm being extremely clever up here and there's no one here to stand around looking impressed! What's the point in having you all?
- The Doctor

Teach a man to fish, and he'll eat for a lifetime, but teach a man to reason, and he'll think for a lifetime.
- Phil Plait

There's lots of mystery in the universe, and every new piece of information we find gives us a little bit more understanding, and just makes the picture we're trying to paint a little bit bigger and requires a lot more paint. It's a wonderful miraculous universe, miraculous is a bad word... It's a wonderful marvelous universe filled with science that we're still trying to understand, and because we don't understand it people mistake it for magic. As scientists it's our job to describe the magic, and give it equations, and give it math, and give it graphs, and give it computer models, and basically be able to beat things into a bloody pulp of understanding.
- Dr. Pamela L. Gay

"Curiously enough, the only thing that went through the mind of the bowl of petunias as it fell was "Oh no, not again". Many people have speculated that if we knew exactly why the bowl of petunias had thought that we would know a lot more about the nature of the universe than we do now." 
- Douglas Adams, The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy

Do you ever just wanna turn into vanilla pudding and fly off into the sunset?
- Sarah Slaymaker

You're not mating with me, sunshine!
- Donna Noble

Brian Pond, you are delicious.
- The Doctor

You know what they say: four's company, five's...just awkward.
- Lizzie Bennet

Like one giant incestuous orgy of awkward and facepalming
- Lizzie Bennet

Shut up! I'm being a white Morgan Freeman!
- Noah James

And a waka-waka-waka to you, good sir.
- Mathieu Lebiere

If you're dead, there's little you can do to be happy.
- Carl Sagan

My fists are not up here because I'm milking a giant invisible cow.
- Sheldon Cooper

You talk all the time, but you don't say anything.
- Donna Noble

Doctor: There's an old earth saying, Captain, a phrase of great power and wisdom, and consolation to the soul in times of need...
Captain: What's that then?
Doctor: Allons-y!!
- The 10th Doctor

Good evening, I'm a lizard woman from the dawn of time, and this is my wife. 
- Vastra

I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by.
- Douglas Adams

Anything that happens, happens.
Anything that, in happening, causes something else to happen, causes something else to happen.
Anything that, in happening, causes itself to happen again, happens again.
It doesn’t necessarily do it in chronological order, though.
- Douglas Adams

            

Who, dear? Me, dear? Gay, dear? Yes, dear.

So...remember that thing I was vague to you all about last time? Well...now I've told all of my readers who I know, so I guess I can make an entry about it.

I'm gay. Yep, a homosexual male. I've known this for about 3+ years and hadn't told anyone until February 4th, on which day I told my best friend Erika. Here's how that happened: I had wanted to tell her since like september, but I had just kept telling myself "I'll do it another time, I'm not ready now." But, I just got so annoyed with myself doing that, I decided to nail myself down to a date I would do it by. I did this by telling Erika I wanted to tell her something somewhat important within the next month. I should have predicted what happened from there...She kept asking and asking what it was and wouldn't stop until I told her (she is very persuasive). So I did. I was not really prepared yet, so it was kind of traumatic, but not really. I had to Facebook message her it even though she was right next to me because my mom was like right behind us. I said "You know that one time Alex thought I was gay? He wasn't exactly wrong.............." She read it, then looked back up at me and just put her arms out for a hug. All in all, it was a very emotional experience for me, but, I can't help but thank her for making me do it. I feel like if she hadn't, I would have found some way around it within the next month and I would have never told anyone. So, thank you Erika, you're the best friend ever. Well from there, the next person who was told was Alex, Erika's boyfriend. Erika asked if she could tell him, and I didn't really see any problem with it. I mean it's probably better that he knows, considering the amount of time Erika spends at my house. So in case he is the jealous type, he now knows there is nothing going on there and there never will be. The next person to be told was Mathieu. I wasn't exactly sure how he'd react, but it was fine. The person after that to be told was Rohun. I originally was going to wait a bit before telling him, but then I decided I would, but I would wait until sunday so I could tell him and Sarah together. But, somehow I managed to promise Aki that I'd tell her too, and then I kind of started to think too much and decided that telling 3 people at once was too much, so I managed to tell Rohun the next day at school. He was totally fine with it, which was awesome. Then on Sunday I told Aki and Sarah. Sarah reacted completely fine at first, but then she realized she was kind of surprised about it later, which is to be expected considering the amount of time Sarah and I have actually known each other. Aki, on the other hand, reacted completely un-surprisedly. Her first words after I told her were "I know." So, yeah. She apparently was able to tell from the way I walked or some shit. But, considering I expected her to react in a completely different and very surprised way, that way was a lot better.

Well I'm still not coming out publicly. And I know what you're saying: "This is on the internet, how is this not public?" Well, fuck you, I know that. But it's not as though anyone who I actually know is going to read this. Maybe random people who somehow find this will read it, but no one I actually know or care about knowing that I'm gay will. So, all in all, I'm perfectly fine with making an entry about it, and am happy to finally be able to do so. It's been a long time without telling anyone, and it is an amazing feeling to finally be able to have people in my life who know.

I fail at posting

I haven't posted in a while. I had a really long post that I was going to post all written out, but then I realized it was the internet and I shouldn't post that here. I'm not really sure what this post is going to be, but it will hopefully be something.

Well my life has been really complicated and annoying for the past week and a half. It's a combination of school, me, family, and other stuff. I just want a break, but I don't see that happening any time soon. It's the end of the trimester so all of my teachers are like "LET'S GIVE THEM ALL THE WORK WE DIDN'T GIVE THEM DURING THE TRIMESTER SO WE CAN RUIN THEIR GRADES WOOO." So that's fun. I've been stressing like fucking shit anyways, and now school only adds to that. For the past week, it seems that whenever I am alone, all I can do is stress, and it's not very fun at all. Don't worry, I won't do anything bad. But, I do wish it would just stop. I haven't been really like happy for anything recently. The only thing I was really looking forward to today was having friends  coming over after school, but one can't come because he has to go to crew and the other didn't come to school today. So, I can look forward to an afternoon of stress and annoyingness. How wonderful...A nice start to a weekend of stress and annoyingness and writing essays for English because Dr. Sanders lost one of mine. I wish the trimester weren't ending next week, but sadly it is.


Mehrrr my attitude right now is just fuck everything. I don't want to deal with all of the things I have to deal with right now.

So. Many. Emotions

Woo for short entries. Sorry my entries have been so short recently, but mehajskahdadad.

Also, this one is another vague one. I'm really sorry, but I kind of have to write about this right now.

Anyway, here goes:


Holy fucking hell. The amount of emotions I've gone through in the past few days is seriously a lot. It's a mixture of good and bad ones, though a lot of them are good. And, the bad ones are mostly me worrying and making things up where they don't actually exist. But ever since monday, I've just had so much going through my head, wondering whether or not it was the right thing to do (I'm pretty sure it was, but I like to worry a lot), and where to go from here. And then there are other emotions relating to that, but somewhat different. I'm just confused, relieved, and a bit nervous right now.



Again, sorry for the vagueness. But I needed to organize my thoughts, even in a vague way. I was legitimately about to cry thinking about everything, so I thought I should write a bit about it. Sorry if the vague annoyed you or something.

Maybe happiness will let happy stuff happen

GUISE THERE MIGHT BE A TWO HOUR DELAY TOMORROW. Probably not knowing WT, but I can dream, can't I?  You know how wondrous it would be if there was one though? Amazing. I wouldn't have to take the history quiz. I really hope a two hour delay happens. I know it won't though, which is sad.

Now for a vague thing (Sorry! These are just kind of to help me remember things that happened) I did something today that was incredibly hard to do, but I feel a great relief now that I did it. I have the greatest best friend in the world. I'm just going to say that keeping a secret for over 2.5 years and then finally telling someone is the best feeling in the world.

Never again

Seriously. Never again.

So, I was just at my first school dance. It was probably the worst experience I've had in a while. In the beginning, it wasn't that bad, but then when my friends actually all got up to dance, I was forced to go with them. I don't dance. At all. If I did it would be bad. I tried but then I stopped, because it was seriously uncomfortable for me. Everyone kept trying to get me to but I felt incredibly uncomfortable doing it, so I didn't. Basically everyone trying to get me to was just a constant reminder of how awkward I am. Normally, me being awkward and abnormal is perfectly fine. But, in this situation, I was surrounded by a bunch of normal people who were having fun doing this, and then there was me, having one of the worst times of my life. I don't know how I was ever convinced to go. I mean the only reason Erika ever tried to get me to go was so I could meet Alex in person. I did, and he was basically the same as when I met him online, but the rest of it was just horrible. The best part was the last half hour. Erika, Alex, and I went upstairs to get away from the loud music. That was just wonderful. I do terribly in large crowds of people, which is one of the reasons the dance was so uncomfortable, but when it was reduced to only 2 other people I actually managed to have fun. If the whole dance had just been that it would have been so much better. But it wasn't, and it sucked. A lot.


I'm never going to one ever again. Sorry, but that was one of the worst things I've done in a while.