Well I've hit my post limit on Tumblr so hello

Hi. I have't posted anything good in a long time

Blame tumblr for that.

Anyway, happy april fools day! I hate this day, but today on Tumblr it was the Mishapocalypse so that was fun. And for the first time ever, I hit my the daily post limit of 250 per day. So now I'm stuck here for the next six hours with nothing to do.

I have to go back to school tomorrow. WHY? I really don't want to. These past 2 weeks have been so relaxing you have no idea. I haven't had any school stress and it was glorious. Now I get to go back to all that hell. I don't really want to, but fucking life says we have to. Mehhhhh.

Anyway sorry for the stupid post. I'm trying to occupy myself until at least midnight. Then I can start posting on tumblr again.

Yes this is an addiction don't judge me.

I haven't blogged in a while so here's a thing

From tumblr, it's an ask meme thing. Since I don't expect to get any on tumblr I'll just fill out the whole thing here woo:

• 1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up. -  1. Masterpiece Theatre II by Marianas Trench 2. Battlestar Galactica theme (yes I'm a nerd stfu) 3. If You were there, beware by The Arctic Monkeys 4. Ashamed of the Story I Told by Polaris 5. Song of Freedom from Doctor Who (YES I AM A NERD STFU) 6. Doctor Who on Holiday by Dean Gray
• 2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Living: Neil DeGrasse Tyson. Dead: Carl Sagan
• 3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. "She went on to the next one" (super exciting I know)
• 4) What do you think about most? Science, life, Jared Padalecki...I don't know
• 5) Ever had a poem or song written about you? Not that I know of
• 6) Do you have any strange phobias? Bugs? But like all bugs ever
• 7) What's your religion? Atheism! WOOOO
• 8) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? Going inside
• 9) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band? MASDJKASHDKJAHS NOPE. Right now, Marians Trench. All time, NO FUCKING CLUE OKAY
• 10) What was the last lie you told? That I was unable to go on a ski trip. I just didn't want to go :P
• 11) Do you believe in karma? Not particularly (unless it's reddit karma)
• 12) What does your URL mean? On Tumblr: Rock salt and Sonic Screwdrivers, two important things from Doctor Who and Supernatural. Here: it's just a thing
• 13) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? Greatest weakness: chocolate. Greatest strength: science?
• 14) Who is your celebrity crush? JARED PADALECKI AJKDSHJKFHSUIHULIDGUYBJKHDSBLHB 
• 15) How do you vent your anger? By talking to friends or writing about it
• 16) Do you have a collection of anything? I have what has become a collection of sonic screwdrivers
• 17) Are you happy with the person you've become? Mehhh both yes and no. I'm amazed I have friends and I love all of them, but there are things about me I hate
• 18) What's a sound you hate; sound you love? Sound I hate: Rap music. Sound I love: the sound of the night when you're outside in a dark place doing astronomy
• 19) What's your biggest "what if"? What if I die today?
• 20) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? No ghosts (even though I watch Supernatural). Yes I totally believe in aliens, I just don't believe they are the ones doing the crop circle things and stuff
• 21) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. Right arm: air. Left arm: Pillow
• 22) Smell the air. What do you smell? Air
• 23) What's the worst place you have ever been to? Semi-formal dance
• 24) Most attractive singer/s of your opposite gender? wHAT UNFAIR I CAN'T TELL ATTRACTIVE IN THE OTHER GENDER. Of my gender, the only one I can think of: Josh Ramsay
• 25) To you, what is the meaning of life? To live
• 26) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? I drive (sort of) thankfully I haven't crashed yet
• 27) What was the last movie you saw? Ted
• 28) What's the worst injury you've ever had? Broke my toe in pre-k (I don't get injured often)
• 29) Do you have any obsessions right now? THE INTERNET, SUPERNATURAL, DOCTOR WHO, TUMBLR, AKJLHFKLSDBFLDKSF.
• 30) Ever had a rumor spread about you? Technically no, but my whole class seems to think Aki and I are dating
• 31) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? No not really
• 32) What is your astrological sign? FUCK YOU AND ALL YOU STAND FOR BIOTCH
• 33) What's the last thing you purchased? A Doctor Who DVD......
• 34) Love or lust? Wut
• 35) In a relationship? Lolnope
• 36) How many relationships have you had? 0 
• 37) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? My fucking charm...jk...I don't know I'm afraid of everyone.
• 38) Where is your best friend? Which one? I'm talking to one right now on facebook, I assume she's at her house. The other one is most likely with her boyfriend doing things
• 39) What were you doing last night at 12 AM? In my room watching Supernatural
• 40) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? I hope so...
• 41) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? I FUCKING SAVE THE DOG DUDE WUT NO I COULDN'T NOT DO THAT FUCK YOU BOSS I HATE YOUR ASS
• 42) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid? a. YES I TELL MY FRIENDS. b. I FUCKING ASTRONOMY ALL THE TIME. c. YES I'D BE SCARED AS HELL
• 43) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? I don't really know
• 44) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? Happiness?
• 45) How can I win your heart? Be nice to me and love science and Doctor Who and Supernatural and everything I love
• 46) Can insanity bring on more creativity? Probably
• 47) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? Telling my friends that I'm gay
• 48) What would you want to be written on your tombstone? Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known - Carl Sagan
• 49) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word "heart." An internal organ
• 50) Basic question; what's your favorite color/colors? The primary colours, blue, green, red
• 51) What is your current desktop picture? An aurora in the mountains
• 52) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? That's a mean question
• 53) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on? Are you gay?
• 54) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? The power to teleport
• 55) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? I'd go back to NMSkies. Even for only a half hour, that was a wonderful time
• 56) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? Semi
• 57) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be? Music celebrity or musician/celebrity? Music celebrity: No fucking clue. If it can just be a celebrity then JARED PADALECKI OF COURSE
• 58) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? Somewhere dark
• 59) Ever been on a plane? Yes many times
• 60) Give me your top 5 hottest celebrities. 1. Jared Padalecki 2. Jensen Ackles 3. David Tennant 4. Ian Somerholder 5. CAN I JUST HAVE JARED PADALECKI ON HERE AGAIN PLEASE

So that was my thing I hope you liked it

To anyone who reads this who has ever asked me what type of music I like

Go to my tumblr, I just got a playlist. I would like to think that that sample of things I have there accurately portrays the type of music I listen to.

Anyway, enjoy that.


Sorry for the short post.

But, I must return to watching Supernatural.

Adios

So I drove

I DROVE AN ACTUAL CAR

AND I DIDN'T KILL ANYONE

OR BREAK THE CAR

I ACTUALLY DID SOMEWHAT WELL

I EVEN DROVE ON A ROAD WITH OTHER CARS AND SUCH


AKDNAJSLKFHAL I'M EXCITED

I MAY FINALLY DRIVE

So, Erika told her mom a while ago about how I haven't driven yet because my parents are unable to get their shit together and just fucking let me drive, and she offered to take me driving.

Last week, we finally got around to remembering that and we finally made plans! So, guess what?

THIS WEEKEND I AM GOING TO GO DRIVING! WOOOOOOO.

Thank you, Erika's mother! WOOOO!!


Also, it's really awkward when you think someone knows you're gay and then you message them and tell them not to tell anyone and then they don't know you're gay and it's awkward....sorry Alexandra. I'm not sure if she actually knew before I messaged her but I don't think she did. Either way she now knows. So that brings the total up to 12 other people who know.


WHAT HAS MY LIFE BECOME AKSJDHASD


ALSO I GET TO SKIP SCHOOL TOMORROW BECAUSE MY DAD IS HAVING SURGERY AND JESSIE WANTS TO WATCH DOCTOR WHO SO YAY! And when we're not watching Doctor Who, MOAR SUPERNATURAL WOOO!!!

This is a bit of a rant

So, my high school class has a facebook group in which we (at least we’re supposed to) post things for classes (like quizlets and whatnot). Recently some of the stupid people in my class have been posting random videos of shit…which lead to this comment after someone finally posted something useful:

“Yay! Finally something that’s not AP Euro or gay shit!” 

GAY SHIT?!

EXCUSE ME!?

None of those videos had anything to do with homosexuality or whatever and it really gets me when people use gay as an insult, especially being gay myself. I don’t understand how people just throw that word around like that as an insult. I mean there is an OPENLY GAY person in the class (not me) and they can see that comment easily. Also, I expected the person who replied to the comment to get at least somewhat annoyed or whatever at the “gay shit” part, because he is pretty smart and a friend of mine (even though he doesn’t know I’m gay), but he just went along with it and kept using it. 

I really hope that one day people will stop using “gay” as an insult and finally start to just use it where it applies, to homosexual people. If they don’t, then homosexuality is never going to end up being viewed as anything but a negative thing that people want to avoid. 

Sorry for the rant, but it was necessary.

EDIT: TWO OF MY FRIENDS WHO KNOW I'M GAY LIKED THE COMMENT SERIOUSLY WTF YOU HAVE A GAY FRIEND

I'm too asjdklhasjkd to post a real entry today

So here's a list of random things I thought/had realizations about/whatever today:

1. If the guy I liked was gay, I actually may be able to get the courage to ask him out. Sadly he's not.
2. I am the most spastic dancer in the universe
3. I am the most awkward texter in the universe
4. I spend a shit ton of time on tumblr
5. I had a conversation about how the creation of life could have been sped up by catalysts in clay crystals.
6. I talked a lot about science today
7. I need to apologize to someone very soon
8. Certain people are douchebags and I question how I managed to be friends with them for 8 years.
9. I realized that I am going to be 18 in a year and a half. Wut
10. People in general just suck

Snow day please?

So I read on the weather places that 4-8 inches of snow are expected!

Please Gary J. I would love a snow day

Then I wouldn't have to finish my Spanish essay and I could stay home and watch Supernatural all day.  I need my daily dose of moose anyway.


Please!

That awkward moment when you accidentally come out to someone

Well I just accidentally came out to someone.

No, not Jon, Hannah. I was talking about how I have too much school and all I want to do is watch Supernatural, but it came out like this:

I just want to stay here and watch the beautiful Winchester brothers fight demons


I DIDN'T MEAN TO SAY BEAUTIFUL BUT I WASN'T THINKING


KJASDHSKAJDHASKJDHASKJDHASKDJASDKJHADAJKHASJKABSDLJKFH FUCK


NOW SHE IS ALL "WUT"

Why am I so stupid?

Wut

So guess what?

I just started watching Supernatural.

It's really good. Though, there is one problem. A part of me can't tell if I actually like the show or just the gorgeously attractive Sam Winchester and his brother Dean (who is still attractive but less so than Sam). Either way, I spent almost 17 straight (or gay, considering it was me and the Winchesters) hours of my life watching it yesterday because Sarah is a douche canoe. Sarah and Erika were here yesterday and they wanted to get me to start watching Supernatural. I wasn't opposed, but I wanted to wait until spring break so I could not have it interfere with my school stuffs. But, they somehow got me to watch it, and then I didn't stop ever. Erika left at 5, but Sarah stayed all night because her parents forgot to pick her up and my mom fell asleep. We didn't sleep, we just watched Supernatural.

I am dead right now. I was supposed to go to Jon's today to build rockets, but I cancelled because I was dying this morning. I'm not even allowed to sleep until tonight because if I went to bed now it would disrupt my sleeping rhythms. Guys, I can't even keep my eyes open without shaking my head back and forth a bunch to keep myself from falling asleep.

Remind me NEVER to stay up all night again. I can stay up late, but I need SOME sleep or I'll be dead the next day.


Please.


Merjkhdakjsdhasd

Why I HATE being ignored

Whether it be in real life, over text, or online, being ignored is probably my biggest pet peeve.

Why do I hate it so much? Because of my family really. It reminds me too much of them. My parents have NEVER been responsible (no matter how much they want to tell me they are, they really aren't. I'd give reasons but I can't put that stuff online). A lot of the time, if I need them, they will not be anywhere near a phone or available. I remember one time in which I was stuck somewhere, and I needed a ride back because no one else could give me one, and I called my mom, she said she was coming to get me, and then fell asleep and was unable to be woken up, and my dad had gone an a 3 hour walk with the dogs and decided he didn't need to take his phone, so I was stranded there and being ignored.

Being ignored, especially in situations like that, really doesn't feel good. It really doesn't take that much for me to not be angry at being ignored. Really only some sort of response. For example, if my dad had taken his phone on the walk and said "I'm on a walk with the dogs, I can't do anything" I would have been so much better, but from my point of view, it just seemed like he was not answering.

I also hate getting ignored over text/messages. That's probably where I hate it the most. If someone is online, you should be able to message them and get a response. And if they don't want to talk, they should just say "Hey, I can't talk now, I'm doing *insert action here*" or "Hey I can't talk now, I'm talking to someone." Even if you're talking to someone else and don't want to talk to me, tell me that, I would be far less offended than if I'm ignored.

I need to shut up

Yep. I do

So, let's not speak words here anymore. Let's just speak bullshit about my day and stuff.

So, wooo I had school today. It wasn't that bad, but I was half dead the whole day because I didn't fall asleep until after 1:30 last night (not for lack of trying, I was legitimately there in my bed trying to sleep and just couldn't). But, thankfully, I got to start the day with a free. It's my lonely free, but that is the time I get to just interent and no one is saying "OH MY GOD WHAT WAS THAT LOLZ THAT WAS SO FUNNY LETS KEEP LOOKING AT IT EVEN THOUGH YOU WANT TO MOVE ON" (which happens a lot in my other frees, as it is generally friends video gaming next to me, then they look over and see something funny, and say basically those words). Then I had math. Math wasn't horrible today. We just learned a bit more about rational functions. Mr. Hallas also wasn't being too much of an asshole today, so that was nice. Then I had English, in which we did legitimately nothing at all. Garret presented his poem, we reviewed some punctuation, and had a stupid thing, then began some presentations. Then was history, which was just notes as usual. Then a free (yay!) in which I just talked to Lily whilst she was going insane (not even exaggerating). Then I had Spanish, which was suckish as usual. Then I had photo! We didn't really do anything today. We saw some negatives and such and Mr. Jones attempted to demonstrate a camera obscura, but it wasn't sunny enough. So, we ended class 15 minutes early and left. I think photo is going to be pretty fun once we get into actually doing stuff. The class is really big though, like 18 people, so that's going to suck. But, there is a really attractive freshman in the class, so that's nice.

So that was my day. Pretty boring, but akjdhaksjdhad.

P.S. Sorry for all the mentions of guys recently on the blog. It's just really nice (in my opinion) that I'm able to finally say these things now, after more than 3 years of keeping it a secret. I'll calm down at some point, I promise.

I LOL

Okay, so I just got a thing from Dr. Sanders about my Macbeth essay. She said it's my best work of the year and I must have worked incredibly hard on it.

Guess what?

I wrote it in like 2 hours while taking a like 15 minute break after each paragraph (ADD problems)

Apparently I am a professional bullshitter.

Thank you Chanukkah

So I just remembered I still have $150 left from Chanukkah. Guess what I'm going to do with it? I'M GOING TO BUY 10 CLASSIC WHO STORIES. YES IT IS GOING TO BE EPIC. I AM GOING TO LOVE IT. I AM EVEN GETTING SOME JELLY BABIES. I AM GOING TO BE BRITISH. WOOOO.

THANK YOU GRANDPARENTS.

I was told to post

I don't really know what I'm going to say, but hello!

I'm typing obnoxiously loud right now. Not really sure why.

I hate these posts in which I just say a sentence and then have a space and then say another one.

But here is one.

Okay now I'm just doing it to annoy you all.

Hehe I win.

Anyway, my day has been pretty boring. I haven't really done much. I slept, and then I woke up. Then I ate breakfast (well it was more like lunch, but still). Then I computed for a while. Then I read (yes, Aki, I can read). Then I helped my father get all of the recycling stuffs to the place that they needed to get to. Then we got dinner and ate it. Then, I went on a reblogging spree on tumblr. I reblogged a shit ton of Lizzie Bennet Diaries things. Including this. That is apparently also a meme called Hipster!Darcy. But the caption entertained me (as that was like my favorite line from whichever episode that was from) (also Darcy is attractive). But anyway, now I'm here and writing about my day. I hope you enjoyed it.

Something somewhat entertaining

This is going to be a quick post. Just saying.



Girls are always saying "ALL OF THE ATTRACTIVE GUYS ARE GAY!"

But I noticed myself thinking this earlier "ALL OF THE ATTRACTIVE GUYS ARE STRAIGHT!"


I guess the grass is always greener on the other side.

This picture only proves my point. That is a beautiful guy, and he is straight. (Credit to the bestie for the picture, by the way)


I don't really know why I made this post. It was far more entertaining in my head, but now that I look at it in writing it looks stupid. But, since I have nothing else to post, enjoy this.





P.S. In the interest of fairness, I did just get sent a long list of pictures of attractive gay guys (apparently this is what Erika likes to do, I don't know). But, still most of the attractive guys are straight. Merrr

Woo sickness

So I'm at home sick

#funtimes

It's actually pretty good. I had some stuff I needed to catch up on for school, so my migraine this morning gave me the perfect opportunity to stay home and get some work done. Also get away from all of the drama that has recently attacked me. Well I have to go back tomorrow...sadly. At least I drop Spanish! Wooo!!

Merrr things

Another vague thing sorry.


I have too many things going on. School, personal things, and super personal things. I wish school would just leave. The personal things are stupid. And the super personal things kind of suck. There is also multiple super personal things, so yeah.

Just too much stuff. That's all. It's also all happening at once, so that sucks.

Mah Fravrit Querts

First off, sorry it's red. It had to be or you wouldn't be able to read the quotes. The white highlight is because I copied from Facebook, and I couldn't figure out how to fix it. Sorry. If it weren't red, you could barely read it. 


So, I haven't posted in a few days. I still have no idea what to post about, so I'll just post my favorite quotes from my facebook page. Sorry there are so many of them. I like a lot of words. Enjoy the entertainment and awesomeness:


From this distant vantage point, the Earth might not seem of particular interest. But for us, it's different. Consider again that dot. That's here, that's home, that's us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every "superstar," every "supreme leader," every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived there – on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam.
- Carl Sagan

Nerds like us are allowed to be unironically enthusiastic about stuff. We don't have to be like, 'Oh yeah that purse is okay' or like, 'Yeah I like that band's early stuff.' Nerds are allowed to love stuff, like jump-up-and-down-in-the-chair-can't-control-yourself-love it. When people call people nerds, mostly what they are saying is, 'You like stuff', which is just not a good insult at all, like 'You are too enthusiastic about the miracle of human consciousness'.
- John Green

Jon: What religion are the Kwanza people?
Aki: Africa?

Sarah: I took Chinese for a while.
Me: Cool! Say something!
Sarah: 您的姓氏是什麼?
Me: What does that mean?
Sarah: What's your surname?
Me: You should know my last name by now
Me: 
Me:
Sarah:
Me: OOOOOHHHH

In the beginning, the universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry, and has been widely regarded as a "bad move."
- Douglas Adams

Space is big, really big! You just won't believe how vastly, hugely, mind- bogglingly big it is. I mean, you may think it's a long way down the road to the chemist's, but that's just peanuts to space.
- Douglas Adams

This is my timey-wimey detector...It goes ding when there's stuff.
- The Doctor

Apollo: What's your name, again?
Brenda: Amnesia!
Apollo: Amnesia, that's a pretty name.

People assume that time is a straight progression from cause to effect, but actually, from a nonlinear, nonsubjective viewpoint it's actually more like a big ball of wibbly wobbly, timey wimey...stuff.
- The Doctor

A needle that looks like hay. A haylike needle of death. A haylike needle of death in a haystack ... of statues. No, yours was fine.
- The Doctor

I can't remember anything after I first came to Eureka, like becoming an astronaut, or being kidnapped, or dying. Especially the dying part...that was awkward.
- Holly Marten

Fargo, get up! We gotta put your thing in a hole before it blows!
- Sheriff Carter

What do you hear?
Nothing but the rain...
- Adama and Starbuck

Amy: If we had gotten married, our kids would have had very, very red hair
Doctor: The ultimate ginger!

I'm the doctor. Well, they call me the doctor. Don't know why...I call me the doctor too. Still don't know why...
- The Doctor

I'm being extremely clever up here and there's no one here to stand around looking impressed! What's the point in having you all?
- The Doctor

Teach a man to fish, and he'll eat for a lifetime, but teach a man to reason, and he'll think for a lifetime.
- Phil Plait

There's lots of mystery in the universe, and every new piece of information we find gives us a little bit more understanding, and just makes the picture we're trying to paint a little bit bigger and requires a lot more paint. It's a wonderful miraculous universe, miraculous is a bad word... It's a wonderful marvelous universe filled with science that we're still trying to understand, and because we don't understand it people mistake it for magic. As scientists it's our job to describe the magic, and give it equations, and give it math, and give it graphs, and give it computer models, and basically be able to beat things into a bloody pulp of understanding.
- Dr. Pamela L. Gay

"Curiously enough, the only thing that went through the mind of the bowl of petunias as it fell was "Oh no, not again". Many people have speculated that if we knew exactly why the bowl of petunias had thought that we would know a lot more about the nature of the universe than we do now." 
- Douglas Adams, The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy

Do you ever just wanna turn into vanilla pudding and fly off into the sunset?
- Sarah Slaymaker

You're not mating with me, sunshine!
- Donna Noble

Brian Pond, you are delicious.
- The Doctor

You know what they say: four's company, five's...just awkward.
- Lizzie Bennet

Like one giant incestuous orgy of awkward and facepalming
- Lizzie Bennet

Shut up! I'm being a white Morgan Freeman!
- Noah James

And a waka-waka-waka to you, good sir.
- Mathieu Lebiere

If you're dead, there's little you can do to be happy.
- Carl Sagan

My fists are not up here because I'm milking a giant invisible cow.
- Sheldon Cooper

You talk all the time, but you don't say anything.
- Donna Noble

Doctor: There's an old earth saying, Captain, a phrase of great power and wisdom, and consolation to the soul in times of need...
Captain: What's that then?
Doctor: Allons-y!!
- The 10th Doctor

Good evening, I'm a lizard woman from the dawn of time, and this is my wife. 
- Vastra

I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by.
- Douglas Adams

Anything that happens, happens.
Anything that, in happening, causes something else to happen, causes something else to happen.
Anything that, in happening, causes itself to happen again, happens again.
It doesn’t necessarily do it in chronological order, though.
- Douglas Adams

            

Who, dear? Me, dear? Gay, dear? Yes, dear.

So...remember that thing I was vague to you all about last time? Well...now I've told all of my readers who I know, so I guess I can make an entry about it.

I'm gay. Yep, a homosexual male. I've known this for about 3+ years and hadn't told anyone until February 4th, on which day I told my best friend Erika. Here's how that happened: I had wanted to tell her since like september, but I had just kept telling myself "I'll do it another time, I'm not ready now." But, I just got so annoyed with myself doing that, I decided to nail myself down to a date I would do it by. I did this by telling Erika I wanted to tell her something somewhat important within the next month. I should have predicted what happened from there...She kept asking and asking what it was and wouldn't stop until I told her (she is very persuasive). So I did. I was not really prepared yet, so it was kind of traumatic, but not really. I had to Facebook message her it even though she was right next to me because my mom was like right behind us. I said "You know that one time Alex thought I was gay? He wasn't exactly wrong.............." She read it, then looked back up at me and just put her arms out for a hug. All in all, it was a very emotional experience for me, but, I can't help but thank her for making me do it. I feel like if she hadn't, I would have found some way around it within the next month and I would have never told anyone. So, thank you Erika, you're the best friend ever. Well from there, the next person who was told was Alex, Erika's boyfriend. Erika asked if she could tell him, and I didn't really see any problem with it. I mean it's probably better that he knows, considering the amount of time Erika spends at my house. So in case he is the jealous type, he now knows there is nothing going on there and there never will be. The next person to be told was Mathieu. I wasn't exactly sure how he'd react, but it was fine. The person after that to be told was Rohun. I originally was going to wait a bit before telling him, but then I decided I would, but I would wait until sunday so I could tell him and Sarah together. But, somehow I managed to promise Aki that I'd tell her too, and then I kind of started to think too much and decided that telling 3 people at once was too much, so I managed to tell Rohun the next day at school. He was totally fine with it, which was awesome. Then on Sunday I told Aki and Sarah. Sarah reacted completely fine at first, but then she realized she was kind of surprised about it later, which is to be expected considering the amount of time Sarah and I have actually known each other. Aki, on the other hand, reacted completely un-surprisedly. Her first words after I told her were "I know." So, yeah. She apparently was able to tell from the way I walked or some shit. But, considering I expected her to react in a completely different and very surprised way, that way was a lot better.

Well I'm still not coming out publicly. And I know what you're saying: "This is on the internet, how is this not public?" Well, fuck you, I know that. But it's not as though anyone who I actually know is going to read this. Maybe random people who somehow find this will read it, but no one I actually know or care about knowing that I'm gay will. So, all in all, I'm perfectly fine with making an entry about it, and am happy to finally be able to do so. It's been a long time without telling anyone, and it is an amazing feeling to finally be able to have people in my life who know.

I fail at posting

I haven't posted in a while. I had a really long post that I was going to post all written out, but then I realized it was the internet and I shouldn't post that here. I'm not really sure what this post is going to be, but it will hopefully be something.

Well my life has been really complicated and annoying for the past week and a half. It's a combination of school, me, family, and other stuff. I just want a break, but I don't see that happening any time soon. It's the end of the trimester so all of my teachers are like "LET'S GIVE THEM ALL THE WORK WE DIDN'T GIVE THEM DURING THE TRIMESTER SO WE CAN RUIN THEIR GRADES WOOO." So that's fun. I've been stressing like fucking shit anyways, and now school only adds to that. For the past week, it seems that whenever I am alone, all I can do is stress, and it's not very fun at all. Don't worry, I won't do anything bad. But, I do wish it would just stop. I haven't been really like happy for anything recently. The only thing I was really looking forward to today was having friends  coming over after school, but one can't come because he has to go to crew and the other didn't come to school today. So, I can look forward to an afternoon of stress and annoyingness. How wonderful...A nice start to a weekend of stress and annoyingness and writing essays for English because Dr. Sanders lost one of mine. I wish the trimester weren't ending next week, but sadly it is.


Mehrrr my attitude right now is just fuck everything. I don't want to deal with all of the things I have to deal with right now.

So. Many. Emotions

Woo for short entries. Sorry my entries have been so short recently, but mehajskahdadad.

Also, this one is another vague one. I'm really sorry, but I kind of have to write about this right now.

Anyway, here goes:


Holy fucking hell. The amount of emotions I've gone through in the past few days is seriously a lot. It's a mixture of good and bad ones, though a lot of them are good. And, the bad ones are mostly me worrying and making things up where they don't actually exist. But ever since monday, I've just had so much going through my head, wondering whether or not it was the right thing to do (I'm pretty sure it was, but I like to worry a lot), and where to go from here. And then there are other emotions relating to that, but somewhat different. I'm just confused, relieved, and a bit nervous right now.



Again, sorry for the vagueness. But I needed to organize my thoughts, even in a vague way. I was legitimately about to cry thinking about everything, so I thought I should write a bit about it. Sorry if the vague annoyed you or something.

Maybe happiness will let happy stuff happen

GUISE THERE MIGHT BE A TWO HOUR DELAY TOMORROW. Probably not knowing WT, but I can dream, can't I?  You know how wondrous it would be if there was one though? Amazing. I wouldn't have to take the history quiz. I really hope a two hour delay happens. I know it won't though, which is sad.

Now for a vague thing (Sorry! These are just kind of to help me remember things that happened) I did something today that was incredibly hard to do, but I feel a great relief now that I did it. I have the greatest best friend in the world. I'm just going to say that keeping a secret for over 2.5 years and then finally telling someone is the best feeling in the world.

Never again

Seriously. Never again.

So, I was just at my first school dance. It was probably the worst experience I've had in a while. In the beginning, it wasn't that bad, but then when my friends actually all got up to dance, I was forced to go with them. I don't dance. At all. If I did it would be bad. I tried but then I stopped, because it was seriously uncomfortable for me. Everyone kept trying to get me to but I felt incredibly uncomfortable doing it, so I didn't. Basically everyone trying to get me to was just a constant reminder of how awkward I am. Normally, me being awkward and abnormal is perfectly fine. But, in this situation, I was surrounded by a bunch of normal people who were having fun doing this, and then there was me, having one of the worst times of my life. I don't know how I was ever convinced to go. I mean the only reason Erika ever tried to get me to go was so I could meet Alex in person. I did, and he was basically the same as when I met him online, but the rest of it was just horrible. The best part was the last half hour. Erika, Alex, and I went upstairs to get away from the loud music. That was just wonderful. I do terribly in large crowds of people, which is one of the reasons the dance was so uncomfortable, but when it was reduced to only 2 other people I actually managed to have fun. If the whole dance had just been that it would have been so much better. But it wasn't, and it sucked. A lot.


I'm never going to one ever again. Sorry, but that was one of the worst things I've done in a while.

Frankly I don't even know anymore.

Aki, before the entry gets started, watch this: another video of David Tennant on the Catherine Tate show in this one David is the Ghost of Christmas Present and it is HILARIOUS!!!

Anyway, now to the entry:

Tumblr has now taken over my life.

Am I going to blog here anymore?

Possibly, possibly not.

Probably, but there is a slight chance I won't

I will definitely be here less.

I nerd out on this blog a lot, but now Tumblr is my place to do that, so I think I will only rant here now.

Sorry? Though I don't think anyone actually cares.

Lol so my life is now gone

Anyone who knows me knows I am a Redditor.

But, now, I am also a Tumblr user.

Damn it.

I now have no reason to leave my computer.

This has taken over my life

On the upside I just got my first follower who I don't know!

Yay!!

Who invented titles anyway?

Mathieu and I made a Dalek! Isn't it pretty? Anyway, I have no idea what I'm doing right now. I just want the week to be over so I can sleep! But today must be thursday and not friday because the universe is evil. And we have a event schedule tomorrow, which is evil...merrr.

I made a tumblr for some reason too. I don't know exactly what to do on there, but I have one now. Once I figure out exactly what to do I will probably be more entertained by it.

Aki you will die from this picture: Benedict

So many of my posts have been really short recently....sorry about that.

Astronomy seems to be the only thing I can write about

I just found an old physics paper that I did for extra credit last year (Mr. Garcia gave 10 extra credit points to anyone who wrote a little 1 page paper about the supernova that happened in M101 last year). I must say, it was a very good paper! It's very short, but in my opinion, it is rather good. In case, by some chance, you would like to read it, here it is:

From Stardust to Stardust by Jacob Block

21 million years ago, a star exploded in the outer regions of a spiral arm in a galaxy called Messier 101, nicknamed the Pinwheel Galaxy. The light from this massive explosion, traveling at exactly 299,792,458 m/s, traveled across trillions of miles of intergalactic space, and a few weeks ago, managed to land in one of the telescopes on a little blue planet in the outer rim of the Orion spur of the Perseus spiral arm of a galaxy called “the Milky Way” by the natives of this little blue planet, which made the native astronomers of this world very happy. The star, more precisely a stellar corpse, was a white dwarf. This particular white dwarf had a companion star, which was about to die, and so that star was becoming a red giant. As it swelled up, the surface of the other star got closer to the white dwarf. It got so close that the gravity from the dense little white dwarf actually started pulling material off the companion onto its surface. It kept doing this until it got to the mass of 1.38 times the mass of the star this little blue planet orbits, named the Sun by its natives. Once it reached that critical mass, the atoms of the material on the surface of the white dwarf started to fuse together in a process called nuclear fusion. Fusion happens in normal stars, but is contained in their cores, but in these cases it is not in the core, it is on the surface. So, it exploded in a type of stellar explosion called a supernova, specifically classified as type 1a. The pressure of the explosion caused the atoms around the star to fuse together, even past the element Iron, which doesn’t like to fuse together on its own, and created all of the elements in the periodic table, from Hydrogen to Uranium. The “ash” of this explosion is called a nebula, in this case a supernova remnant, like the Crab Nebula in the Milky Way. The stuff in the nebula is mostly hydrogen and helium, and as time passes, collapse under gravity into new stars, and new planets with the possibility of new life, all because one star got to massive to contain itself. 

Sorry about the weird font, I copied it from the word processor. 

My favorite thing about the paper is that I wrote it from the point of view of an objective observer, not a native of earth.

Conceited post is conceited.

Finally

So, I finally found out exactly why my computer was being such a douchebag with online videos (and videos in general). The fan was broken! Something so simple could cause so much of a problem. Well I'm glad my computer is getting fixed, and I hope it doesn't take too long. I can only live without it for so long...I'm currently using my mom's computer, so I'm not totally computerless, but I'd like to have mine back. I miss it.

Sorry for the short post. But, I'm too tired to write more. Labdsnmfbsjhjksaghjlksahklfjahak,

A random rant

So I'm just going to rant about an episode of The Sarah Jane Adventures right here (Goodbye Sarah Jane, to be exact):

What the fucking hell? Dementia does not set in like that! One episode Sarah Jane is perfectly fine, and the next she's like an 80 year old woman! RUSSELL T DAVIES, THAT DOES NOT HAPPEN!!! STAHP DOING THAT. I hope that at the end of this we find out that this is some sort of alien affect on her because dementia does NOT fucking set in like this. Because the brain just one day obviously is just like, "hey Imma start degrading myself. Enjoy dementia, bitches." That does not happen!! It's a gradual process! DAVIES, LEARN THIS!!!

Too much shit

Basically, right now there is shit going on (way too much of it) within my whole area of friends. One friend is being a dick (a fucking superdick who doesn't give a fuck about what he does to others) and it's affecting another one in a way that is very bad. I just don't get it. How could he do this after he knows what's going on in this other friend's life? I mean I've known he was a dick for a while, but never to this extent. This is a whole new level of dickness. Whenever he is explaining his "rationale" (of which he has none) behind all of this I just want to punch him in the nuts so much because he won't listen to fucking reason. All of this needs to stop before he does something bad that would make the other friend do something even worse...

Posts about nothing

I post those a lot. I don't know why, but I do. So, here's another one!

Today was meh. I had a chem test, which was easy. I didn't really do anything in my other classes. So school was basically school.

Then I got home and it was still not very exciting. But then a box came! Yay! It contained my shirts, which are awesome, a mug, which is a replacement because the one Mathieu got me was ruined, and...something that I just bought because I had money...a sonic pen. From the episode "Partners in Crime" So, yeah...I have that now. I think I have an addiction to these things. Though, this is the first one I've bought myself. All the other ones were given to me. But the sonic pen is pretty cool. It's an actual pen! With a real amount of ink, unlike the sonic screwdriver pen which has a rather small amount of ink.

Yeah...I'm addicted to sonics. Don't judge me. It's better than cocaine....

Confusion

So today I had a conversation with someone who I thought hated me. We used to be really good friends, but then she was just like nope no more friendness for you! We hadn't talked in over a year and a half and suddenly, today, she just chatted me on gmail. We talked about how high school has been and stuff, and about Doctor Who. All in all, it was incredibly awkward. She apparently found me incredibly annoying before, so that's why she stopped talking to me, but apparently today she just decided to again. I wasn't really sure what to do.....it was very weird. But a part of me does want to re-start the friendship because we really did used to be good friends. I'm not sure what to do at this point though...why must people be so confusing???


In other news, weird things happened today. Don't know exactly what.

Not that bad

So, the school finally told us about our new scheduling system for next year. Guess what? It's not that bad! Everyone was overreacting to the fact that the schedule was changing. Contrary to what everyone says, the current schedule isn't perfect. The new schedule isn't perfect either, but in my opinion, it is better than the current one. So, here's basically what it is:

1st period - 8:30-9:40
2nd period - 9:40-10:40
3rd period - 10:40-12:40
Lunch - 12:40-1:10
4th period - 1:10-2:10
5th period - 2:10-3:10

It's a 6 day cycle, so each class meets every other day. Ensembles and PE and stuff meet in the "G and H block" (as Mr. Bachner called it). The 2 hour period is going to be hard to get used to, but it's going to be useful too. It's not like the teacher is just going to be sitting at the front of the room talking at you for 2 hours, there is going to be other things going on. Second period is "community time" which is going to be weird, but it could also be really useful. It's a free you could potentially have everyday. That's going to be nice. It's also going to mean no more event schedules, so that's nice. I'm really glad that we still have real free periods along with community time. If we didn't, that would suck.

There's something funny about this new schedule too. Eli Naragon (the son of one of the teachers here) said that his dad told him that this new schedule bares a striking resemblance to the schedule that this school had before switching to our current 10 day A week/B week cycle we have now. So that's funny.

Also, I'm just going to say how HAPPY I am that I took speech already. 2 hours of speech would suck. Just think of how many table topics you'd have to do...so glad that's over with.

Titles are too mainstream

So, I'm just writing a very short entry because I can. I don't know what about, but I am.

So, today happened. Mondays are never fun in the first place, and I was tired today so it sucked more. I went to bed at a reasonable time, 11, but my dogs started barking at 5:30 and didn't stop so I woke up then. It was really annoying. Then I went to school, which was boring and nothing much happened. Then I came home and my new Doctor Who shirt was here! Yay! It's cool. So, yeah, that's my day. Not very exciting.

Also, in case anyone was wondering, the thing I posted about before and was being vague about was me trying to decide whether or not to ask someone to semi formal. Not like a date, but a friend. I ended up deciding to ask, but it didn't work.

Fun times of Who

So, I got Erika to watch Doctor Who, and guess what? She loves it! I actually wasn't sure whether or not she would, but thankfully she did. She watched a lot of it last night. I went to bed when she got to Dalek (episode 5 I think), and she probably watched more after that, so who knows. I'm really happy to have another friend who watches Doctor Who! If she can get up to season 7 by April, we could be excited for season 7.5 together. It will be nice not to seem too crazy.

Anyway, today was pretty boring. Driver's ed was dull as usual. Though afterwards my dad forgot to get me, so I ended up getting a ride with Aki, which somehow lead to dinner, so that was exciting.


Anyway, this entry is a lot shorter than I expected it to be. Enjoy? I don't know, but lhjkansjd.,masf

Lol things

Hurray for more vagueness. It's always fun for me when I do that.

So there's something I want to make a post about right now but can't because reasons. It's not a complaint I have or anything bad like that, it's something I may or may not do. But I can't post it because reasons. But, if I do end up doing it I will definitely post about it. This will be interesting...

We'll see what happens I guess.

Sorry for vagueness, but reasons are reasons, so no details for you, internet!

I've been tired, okay?

So I haven't blogged in a while. Schools back, so I've been really tired and trying to get myself back into the habit of waking up early again. It sucks.

But, speaking of school, I've done really well on 2 tests/quizzes I thought I failed, so yay! Now the only one I have to get back is my Spanish quiz I know I failed (not think I failed, I know I did because I just fuckin' know it).

Outside of school, however, other things are happening. Well, kind of, not really. Jessie and I finally got past season 4 of Doctor Who, and now we're well into season 5, getting close to season 6. Season 6 gets REALLY good, and it's going to suck if Jessie has to wait a long time before getting to see it. You know who else needs to see seasons 5 and 6? Aki. But that's beside the point. But since I don't know what the point is, I'll just say this: aidjkhaslkdjhasdkj. Anyway, most of my life for the past few weeks has consisted of mainly just Doctor Who, which I personally have no problem whatsoever with. I seriously can't wait until April. The new season is going to be INCREDIBLE!! COO (hehe I just made that up) FTW!!! I hope I can get Jessie caught up in time. AND I HOPE AKI CATCHES UP IN TIME (AHEM AKI). I need more friends who watch Doctor Who. Or at least more close friends that do. I have friends who do, aka Emma and Mieke, but no close friends (other than Aki, WHO WILL START COUNTING AS A CLOSE FRIEND WHO WATCHES DOCTOR WHO WHEN SHE GETS CAUGHT UP SO I CAN ACTUALLY SAY THINGS WITHOUT WORRYING ABOUT SPOILERS). Anyway, April needs to come sooner. I know I'm going to spend all of spring break re-watching like the whole series leading up to the season 7.5 premiere. If you haven't figured it out yet, I'm really excited for that to happen.

I don't know what else to write about, but I feel I should write other things. Oh, I know what to write about!

Guess what internets? I might be going to semi-formal. Why? Because Erika is evil, that's why. Her boyfriend Alex is going to be there, and she wants me to meet him, so she's trying to get me to go. She's even willing to pay for my ticket, that's how much she wants me to go. I'd feel bad if I didn't go, but I really don't want to go. WHAT DO I DO INTERNET? HELP ME DECIDE. I want to meet Alex and stuff, but I don't want to go to a dance. DANCES ARE EVIL. I don't want to dress up. I should just wear jeans and a t-shirt and be a FUCKING REBEL. I may go as far as wearing jeans and a polo, but that's as far as I'd go in the dressing up front. I'd probably wear my Dalek polo just to be awesome. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WHY AM I CONSIDERING GOING TO A DANCE AHDSAJKDHASLJDHLASKJDHASKJF> WHAT HAS MY LIFE BECOME?

A female Doctor

No, not a female medical person, a female Doctor Who.

I recently read a few articles from 2009-10 about some rumors of how Catherine Tate or Billie Piper could have potentially been cast as the 11th Doctor instead of Matt Smith. It got me thinking, what could a female Doctor mean for Doctor Who?

What would it mean for the companions? For basically the entire series there have been female companions. And in the modern series the main companions have always been female. I mean there have been male companions, i.e. Rory, Adric, etc., but the main companions, i.e. Rose, Martha, Donna, Amy, etc. have been female. If the Doctor suddenly became female, what would that mean for the companions? And say this new female Doctor goes and visits Rose, what the fuck would happen? And River? River would become a forced lesbian! And I don't think Clara would be so keen on traveling with another girl as clever as herself. I don't think it would work...

But, at the same time, it should happen. If Time Lord regeneration is really as random as they say it is, why does The Doctor always end up a human looking white male in his 20s-50s? It's going to stop becoming believable at some point for me. They need to at least change the gender. A female Doctor would be great. Catherine Tate would have made a WONDERFUL 11th Doctor, as would have Billie Piper, though it would have been awkward if the 11th Doctor went to visit Rose and they looked exactly the same, but still, it would have been cool.

I think at some point, possibly as soon as the 12th or 13th Doctor, they may have to cast a woman. It would show that Doctor Who is willing to be risky, imo, and make those kinds of decisions. But they need to cast this woman incredibly well. After the Doctor being a man for the last 1000 years, when he becomes a she it will take a lot of good acting to show him/her getting used to this.

I hope this happens at one point. It would be awesome.

A quick post about an amazing video

The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Daleks


If you like The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, and/or Doctor Who, you will love this video. It's basically a hypothetical entry in the Guide about Daleks. This guy did an amazing job with the animations. It looks EXACTLY like the animations from the Hitchhiker's TV show. It's just awesome. Also the voice, This guy sounds so much like Peter Jones it's weird. I love this video. So much.

Aki you should watch it and tell me what you think.