I MAY FINALLY DRIVE

So, Erika told her mom a while ago about how I haven't driven yet because my parents are unable to get their shit together and just fucking let me drive, and she offered to take me driving.

Last week, we finally got around to remembering that and we finally made plans! So, guess what?

THIS WEEKEND I AM GOING TO GO DRIVING! WOOOOOOO.

Thank you, Erika's mother! WOOOO!!


Also, it's really awkward when you think someone knows you're gay and then you message them and tell them not to tell anyone and then they don't know you're gay and it's awkward....sorry Alexandra. I'm not sure if she actually knew before I messaged her but I don't think she did. Either way she now knows. So that brings the total up to 12 other people who know.


WHAT HAS MY LIFE BECOME AKSJDHASD


ALSO I GET TO SKIP SCHOOL TOMORROW BECAUSE MY DAD IS HAVING SURGERY AND JESSIE WANTS TO WATCH DOCTOR WHO SO YAY! And when we're not watching Doctor Who, MOAR SUPERNATURAL WOOO!!!

This is a bit of a rant

So, my high school class has a facebook group in which we (at least we’re supposed to) post things for classes (like quizlets and whatnot). Recently some of the stupid people in my class have been posting random videos of shit…which lead to this comment after someone finally posted something useful:

“Yay! Finally something that’s not AP Euro or gay shit!” 

GAY SHIT?!

EXCUSE ME!?

None of those videos had anything to do with homosexuality or whatever and it really gets me when people use gay as an insult, especially being gay myself. I don’t understand how people just throw that word around like that as an insult. I mean there is an OPENLY GAY person in the class (not me) and they can see that comment easily. Also, I expected the person who replied to the comment to get at least somewhat annoyed or whatever at the “gay shit” part, because he is pretty smart and a friend of mine (even though he doesn’t know I’m gay), but he just went along with it and kept using it. 

I really hope that one day people will stop using “gay” as an insult and finally start to just use it where it applies, to homosexual people. If they don’t, then homosexuality is never going to end up being viewed as anything but a negative thing that people want to avoid. 

Sorry for the rant, but it was necessary.

EDIT: TWO OF MY FRIENDS WHO KNOW I'M GAY LIKED THE COMMENT SERIOUSLY WTF YOU HAVE A GAY FRIEND

I'm too asjdklhasjkd to post a real entry today

So here's a list of random things I thought/had realizations about/whatever today:

1. If the guy I liked was gay, I actually may be able to get the courage to ask him out. Sadly he's not.
2. I am the most spastic dancer in the universe
3. I am the most awkward texter in the universe
4. I spend a shit ton of time on tumblr
5. I had a conversation about how the creation of life could have been sped up by catalysts in clay crystals.
6. I talked a lot about science today
7. I need to apologize to someone very soon
8. Certain people are douchebags and I question how I managed to be friends with them for 8 years.
9. I realized that I am going to be 18 in a year and a half. Wut
10. People in general just suck

Snow day please?

So I read on the weather places that 4-8 inches of snow are expected!

Please Gary J. I would love a snow day

Then I wouldn't have to finish my Spanish essay and I could stay home and watch Supernatural all day.  I need my daily dose of moose anyway.


Please!

That awkward moment when you accidentally come out to someone

Well I just accidentally came out to someone.

No, not Jon, Hannah. I was talking about how I have too much school and all I want to do is watch Supernatural, but it came out like this:

I just want to stay here and watch the beautiful Winchester brothers fight demons


I DIDN'T MEAN TO SAY BEAUTIFUL BUT I WASN'T THINKING


KJASDHSKAJDHASKJDHASKJDHASKDJASDKJHADAJKHASJKABSDLJKFH FUCK


NOW SHE IS ALL "WUT"

Why am I so stupid?

Wut

So guess what?

I just started watching Supernatural.

It's really good. Though, there is one problem. A part of me can't tell if I actually like the show or just the gorgeously attractive Sam Winchester and his brother Dean (who is still attractive but less so than Sam). Either way, I spent almost 17 straight (or gay, considering it was me and the Winchesters) hours of my life watching it yesterday because Sarah is a douche canoe. Sarah and Erika were here yesterday and they wanted to get me to start watching Supernatural. I wasn't opposed, but I wanted to wait until spring break so I could not have it interfere with my school stuffs. But, they somehow got me to watch it, and then I didn't stop ever. Erika left at 5, but Sarah stayed all night because her parents forgot to pick her up and my mom fell asleep. We didn't sleep, we just watched Supernatural.

I am dead right now. I was supposed to go to Jon's today to build rockets, but I cancelled because I was dying this morning. I'm not even allowed to sleep until tonight because if I went to bed now it would disrupt my sleeping rhythms. Guys, I can't even keep my eyes open without shaking my head back and forth a bunch to keep myself from falling asleep.

Remind me NEVER to stay up all night again. I can stay up late, but I need SOME sleep or I'll be dead the next day.


Please.


Merjkhdakjsdhasd

Why I HATE being ignored

Whether it be in real life, over text, or online, being ignored is probably my biggest pet peeve.

Why do I hate it so much? Because of my family really. It reminds me too much of them. My parents have NEVER been responsible (no matter how much they want to tell me they are, they really aren't. I'd give reasons but I can't put that stuff online). A lot of the time, if I need them, they will not be anywhere near a phone or available. I remember one time in which I was stuck somewhere, and I needed a ride back because no one else could give me one, and I called my mom, she said she was coming to get me, and then fell asleep and was unable to be woken up, and my dad had gone an a 3 hour walk with the dogs and decided he didn't need to take his phone, so I was stranded there and being ignored.

Being ignored, especially in situations like that, really doesn't feel good. It really doesn't take that much for me to not be angry at being ignored. Really only some sort of response. For example, if my dad had taken his phone on the walk and said "I'm on a walk with the dogs, I can't do anything" I would have been so much better, but from my point of view, it just seemed like he was not answering.

I also hate getting ignored over text/messages. That's probably where I hate it the most. If someone is online, you should be able to message them and get a response. And if they don't want to talk, they should just say "Hey, I can't talk now, I'm doing *insert action here*" or "Hey I can't talk now, I'm talking to someone." Even if you're talking to someone else and don't want to talk to me, tell me that, I would be far less offended than if I'm ignored.